have you ever just cared for someone?

you dont know why, but you do anyways?

you find somebody that you can talk to.
somebody thats attractive to you.
somebody that feels the way you do.

Depression is only hard if you try to live through it.

Dont you just wish the world would blow up and end all life that youv'e come to know.

fuck everything and everyone there is and will ever be.




xoxoxo hugs and kisses
eat my dick
love Ross

i think its tuesday, w/e the day doesnt matter.


got back from camping with aleks, evan, derrick, and leslie. aside from the cold weather, the dirt, the dew, and the goddamn roosters that were keeping me up for the better portion of the night. i thought it was pretty good.

i wanna skate, bad, really bad. ohwell fucking kangaroos.

Date:	2005-04-17 23:28
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Mood:	calm
Music:	cypress hill/i want to get high sooo high

4/20/05 For myself and the millions of people like me, this isnt just a day,
or a time for that matter.
Its a signal, a sign, a little reminder that lets you and others know that no
matter the situation, no matter the conditions there is someone out there lighting
up a bowl, joint, bong, hooka, etc...
with as much anger, hate, fear, and loathing going on in this world, its a beautiful
to see people lighting up together. Smoking is about love, unity, and togetherness.

There are many people out there who say that smoking pot is a crime, but what does
this crime entail? laziness? hunger? uncontrollable bouts of laughter?
'cause ill tell you what its not doing, its not giving people lung cancer, its not giving people emphazima, its not causing premature births, or birth defects for that matter.
The only reason's why this is illegal is because it would put the tobacco companies out of business, the paper companies, fuel, clothing, the list goes on. The people that believe buying weed is supporting terrorist have lost there minds, its too much of a risk to ship it to america, and im pretty sure that they arent bending over backwards to get those shipments here.

Marijuanna plant grows more rapidly then the normal tobbacco plant, I.E. the term "weed".
With a strong vibrant growing crop with multiple uses you'd think the government would wanna use this for their own financial gain. With as many uses that pot has the government would not risk the already profitable tobbacco company. The only unfortunate attribute to this is the economic slope that we'ed (haha weed) be suffering but that would drastically as soon as the growers of america step up to the plate.

So what i guess im trying to say is Smoke Smoke, dont support terrorsists buy local, and when it hits 4:20 on 4/20/05 you can count on me, and though i may not be there right next to you hittn' that bowl i'll be there in spirit.





The Lucas's? come on bro has it gotten THAT bad?

Date:	2005-03-10 17:14
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Mood:	relaxed

so yesterday was crap. and im pretty disapointed with Floridas weatherman, fucking idiots.
so to wash away those rainy day blues. eat acid. thats it. and be sure to get plenty of vita C.

i havent seen a couple of you in a while and im just wondering how youre all doing?

Date:	2005-03-08 14:18
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Mood:	tired

you ever have those days where everyone in the fucking world calls you while youre still sleeping, i know Alex is aware of this problem but like almost everyone on my phone thats 129 #'s decided to call me in a 20 min period theyd call or text and goddamnit im not ready to start the day.










I <3 you I <3 you a lot.

Date:	2005-03-03 23:09
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Mood:	calm

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

SORRY FOR BEING A DICK, ITS THE WIHDRAWLS TALKING.

Date:	2004-12-31 15:44
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Mood:	chipper

HAPPY NEW YEARS.
BE MERRY.
GET TRASHED.
GET FUCKED.
HAVE FUN.
BE SAFE.
resolutions
I aim to quit smoking ciggarettes.

Date:	2004-12-24 20:19
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Mood:	pissed off

Merry Christmas.

I hate the holidays.

The holiday greed is what makes me angry.

That and religious fanatics, they piss me off, and its funny too, cause they know they're pissin me off, they're the first ppl to say its better to give than recieve but yknow what those are the same ppl stepping on and over anyone that gets in the way of there christmas shopping. fuck them fucking hypocrites.

Which brings me to my next quarl with the holidays, Drinking. I love drinking and everyone i know drinks, but theres these type, you know who these guys are. they get drunk and think its ok to tell everyone about themselves, and their reasoning behind this is "Oh its the holidays get into the spirit" yea yknow what i would get in to the holidays but the gun/ammo shops weren't open. fuck them. I'll get into the holiday spirit when i damn well please, even if its not during the holidays. Like it could be in the middle of june, you never know when im gonna burst open with the holiday spirit.

Oh, and my FAVORITE, The Carolers. who gave these assholes the right to knock on my door, and start singing those annoying songs? FUCKING HELL MAN, these are the ppl that id like to cause bodily harm too, theyre always happy and just chocked full of the fucking holiday spirit, and they feel its their job to make everyone be happy on Christmas. Its funny too, cause if youre negative with them then they'll say "Maybe you need to talk to god." maybe i need to talk to god, like thats done a whole hell of a lot of help to the ppl that actually need it. Maybe god will drop everything it's doing just so that we can have a chat. : ) and maybe just maybe if we all wish just hard enough, we can turn everybody in the world into a fucking republican, i mean its not that hard all you have to do is have an I.Q. under 50 and make more than $500,000 a week. Cause yknow life would be just that more simple if we all agreed on the same thing.

im pretty sure that somewhere along my entry i had a point i was going to make but im not sure now. maybe this will help you become more like myself cold bitter and democratic.

im not a bad guy i just dont approve of the holidays.

Y'know its that time of the year again, People seem more angry, unhappy, and all around pissed off. But i have the solution, Lithium solves every little problem.

theres not much to say about the holiday spirit, except for this. The holiday spirit is a load of shit, some piece of shit phantasm that was made up so that coporate amerika could make more money. I absolutely hate the holiday spirit, but i like seeing ppl smile.

New Years resolution quit smoking, and finish the book. neither of which will probly happen so yea happy new years

So apparently im a bad influence aren't i rachel. <3
that sucks.

Dimebag Darrell Cest La Vie
that sucks

Date:	2004-12-02 20:16
Subject:	HEY
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	The Burning Sorrows Of A Hornless Unicorn Crying Tears Of Bl

Sigh, so i havent been updating in a long while sooo i guess im back sooo just leave a message and tons of news and yea its all bad.

Well i just got the news last night that im going to be a father, Yes thats right Ross is going to be a dad, i cant begin to tell you how much i feel like and idiot soo yea c'mon with it let me have it cause this idiot now looking at pampers, jesus christ i hate my life.
major fucking sigh on that one. and uhhh yea if theres any tips that any of you could give me theyd be deeply appreciated. or if youd just like to kick my ass that works too.

soooo this is where i say goodbye and that i love you guys.








































...Syke like someones gonna give me a kid. hey love you guys and yea no
kids god i love not being a parent... who do you love

beach this weekend, hotel, alchohol, other things.

Date:	2004-10-07 00:32
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Mood:	aggravated

so yea ive had a really shitty day all around, and to top it all off now ive gotta help my bro cause hes puking his guts out, AWESOME.
If anyone has any good news at all please let me know cause im feeling like shit.

<3

Date:	2004-10-05 11:39
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Mood:	numb
Music:	owww theres a fork in my eye

Im watching this horrible ass movie, called Empire Of The Ants!
I dont believe ive ever seen such a garbage ass movie before in my life.

Heres the plot of the story: GIANT ANTS attack rich people.
Thats it, it was made in the 70's (good portion of the reason why it sucks).
Its like when they were making this movie they said: "hey what are people not afraid of?
Lets make something that makes us look like jackass's and the people who saw this movie very very disappointed."
I mean i shouldnt expect much, seeing as how the name says it all, but thats no excuse.
What gets me most of all is the fact that these people are being out smarted by ants, note keep in mind that an ants goal in life is to serve not to mame. But for some god awful reason these ants are out for blood. Theyre stalking the human prey, this is complete and utter bullshit. Oh yes to make the situation even better theyre on a river in a fucking cannue. Theres sooo much to say about this theatricle piece of work but id rather not, due to the fact that theres an overwhelming amount of anger building up in me at this time.

And its a typical cast of talentless actors, who after made this movie all committed suicide just for the fact that they will never be able to let it down knowing that they took part in a garbage crap-ass film.

Also this movie was made in Florida, another reason why this place sucks.

But this intrigues me, somehow i wanna see more shitty ass films such as this if there's any out there please let me know.

I miss Rachel.

Date:	2004-10-03 01:56
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Mood:	numb

so i think my foot is broken.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!
HILTON WHEN THE HELL ARE WE GONNA HANG OUT AGAIN?

Date:	2004-09-25 18:33
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Mood:	indescribable

Dude I think theres something wrong with the cat.

Date:	2004-09-23 22:16
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Mood:	chipper

HELLO!